Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Changes that happend in my life.

Assalammualaikum, its been a long time that i didnt blog. My life was a hectic. Many things happend and change. Alhamdullillah i am still a healthy and in a "great" condition.

First, i have officially graduate from school. Yeah i still couldnt believe it. Missing my friends and teachers so much but i didnt miss the school thou. Spm is already over hehe yeah freedom i guess. Spm was not that hard as i expected but not easy hahaha . It was tiring. Everyone have a panda eyes on their face. You see how much tired we are. Im glad it already over!

Last year we're friends but not this year. Hell yeah. I did see it coming but i just ignore it. I really didnt expect that she would that to us. I really had a hard time to get over her. It really hurt my heart so much. I couldnt bear to see her. My heart was rip to a thousand pieces not but a million no but a billion. I really miss her seriously even now and forever will be. If you read this ********* i dont mind if you come back to me i will always be here accepting you again. Thank you for everything my friend.

Goodnews i have move on from him. I have found someone new who loves me more than him. Yeah he was right there is someone better than him. This new guy he taught me a lot of things especially about life and sacrifices. My life from being ordinary to extraordinary. I didnt even knew this kind of man exist. Hahaha i feel really thankful to him for loving me eventhough i didnt know about love that much and being in a relationship. I really hope that we could get married someday in the future. I admit being in a long distance relationship is hard but i feel that the distance is not much a problem when he meant so much to me. I love you MZHBK.

Anyways, actualy there is a lot of things happend and change but this is the highlight of all those changes that gave me a lot of impact until now. I will update when i am free. Hehehe i need to finish watching all of my korean drama hahaha. So see you next time . Bye bye.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Should I just kill my self?

I am having a hard time right now. I think my blood pressure is rising. Dipression is over the top. It is increasing rapidly. I am tired mentally and physically. I really need to learn how to control my emotion and anger that I have right now. What should I do? I cant hold it anymore. I cant bare keeping this pain inside me. I need someone who I really trust! My bestfriend where are you? I keep losing you. I have been searching all over the place? 'sigh' I WANT TO CRY OUTLOUD!